Friday, 8 July 2016


When I first started this blog, I don't exactly know what I wanted to achieve from it. I was having a pretty rough time friendship wise, and having become a 'university drop out' I guess the main thing I wanted was a sense of achievement, something to keep me occupied and something to prove to myself that I was capable of actually doing something. 

I guess I set a pretty unrealistic goal of trying to blog everyday when I didn't really know what I was doing and I also didn't really like the image that my blog was portraying. As much as I would love to get back into blogging right now, that is still pretty unrealistic given the amount of hours I'm working and the fact I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. 

However, having logged into my blogger account for the first time in months, I was shocked to see that I've reached 10,000+ views. Which to many bloggers is nothing, but considering I haven't done any sort of publicising for this blog since November this does make me feel some sort of sense of accomplishment that I never thought blogging would make me feel. So thank you.. 

Tuesday, 3 November 2015

Acne killed my confidence and self-esteem.

To people who only suffer from an occasional spot here and there, it might not seem like anything. But for people who suffer from acne on a day to day basis, it can kill any confidence that they had. For me personally when I first started breaking out I was around 13, and at first it didn't really concern me. My parents were more concerned of the scaring it might leave (my mum suffered with acne for over 10 years, and still has the scars) so they were quick to get me to a dermatologist and I was given Isotretinoin.  This worked amazing and the doctors actually stopped me taking it just over half way through the 12 month treatment because my skin looked amazing. I gained so much confidence in the year and a half that my skin was clear, that when they started appearing again I kind of wanted to just ignore them and pretend it wasn't happening again. 

After trying some of the over counter treatments again they just got worse, so I went back to the hospital and they actually refused to re prescribe me Isotretinoin because "they weren't that bad". At this stage they were actually worse than when I was first prescribed Isotretinoin. Over 2 years later I'm still waiting for my follow up appointment and my confidence has fallen dramatically. I can't look people in the eyes when I'm talking to them, I try to cover my checks and chin with my hands when people are talking to me and I wouldn't dream of leaving the house without a full face of concealer and foundation (which isn't really covering my blotchy acne covered red skin anymore).  I would almost go as far as to say it's ruining my social life and my self esteem and confidence. 

This has actually been quite a covered topic in the media, especially if you follow the Kardashian/ Jenners. Kendall Jenner recently opened up about her struggle with acne on her website, which you can see here! Kendall commented on how "acne completely ruined my self-esteem, but it doesn't define who I am". Even though it's something that doesn't change who you are in the slightest it's so hard to realise that it doesn't make you a different person to who you was before acne. It shouldn't change your favourite places to go, or how other people see you. 

There definitely isn't any quick fixes but there are plenty of worse things in the world than a face or body full of acne. 

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